Friday, 30 January 2009

• Long time didn't update my blog, 2 months?

  Things hasn't been good.

  We've broken up.

  Don't know whether he will still visit my blog.

  Even he will visit also not my problem anymore.

  Actually this time we break he did nothing wrong. The problem is on me.

  Regarding to my family problem, i realised that we can't last forever.

  So i told him my feeling towards him already faded.

  At first he keep asking why faded? Is it that the time we spent together is getting lesser and lesser? Or is it that someone is after me?

  I felt angry and diasppointed. We don't have trust.

  There's isn't trust between us you know? Until today you will still question me is it that someone is after me so i choose that person and break with you? Is our 4 years of relationship end up like this? We wasted 4 years of our life and ended up don't trust?

  Very well. He said he've thought of it, we will be friends from then on, so in future i still can ask him out.

  But in the end? I got to know that he go and tell everyone my heart changed, don't love him anymore.

  My heart isn't change at all. But by now, i can confirm that i don't love him anymore.

  Because of his childish act. In the first place i keep tellingmyself he's just a child when we patch back. I will act as a mother and guide him along the road of life. I must be patient to him.

  But whenever i make explaination to him (i already tried my best to explain to him patiently), he will just think that i'm scolding him, don't think of his feeling when i scold him.

  Alright, from now onwards i need not worry about him anymore.

  The first few days i will still tears when thinking of him. I will think that is he love me too much so he control me so much.

  Anyway one of the reason i break with him is, since due to my family problem, i know that if our relationship keep dragging and break in future time, our heart will be more painful.

  Might as well break now, once and for all.

  I've deleted his contact from my phone (although i still remember his number), so i no need feels like messaging him from time to time.

  I've also deleted our photos, the video i created for him, all the chat logs that we chat on msn since we know each other.

  I know i'm trying to run away, escaping from problems. I want to forget him totally.

  After 10 days of breaking up, my heart slowly calm down. Heart won't be so pain especially after what he done after break up.

  I'm sure he already put down on me. He already finding a new girlfriend? Is it that he reallyput down on me? Or trying to find someone to replace me? I don't know and don't wish to know anymore.

  (How i know he finding a new girlfriend? I got answer from what he wrote on friendster.)

  Alright, wish me good luck to forget him. God bless.

   

   

  Now come back to work. Things are not getting fine in NTUC too.

  Especially to colleagues around me.

  Hope this year will be a good year for our branch.

  Hope we will reach target and make good sales for every month.

  Hope the emo manager smiles more. (Don't always find things to scold.)

  Hope every briefing and meetings carries good news.

  Hope we will get more compliments from customers and less complains.

  Hope customers can be more considerate for us, cashiers are human too. (This is life.)

  Hope our salary will increase every year.

  Hope more people will join cashier to clear queue quickly.

  Hope customers buy more. (Earn incentive !$!$)

  Hope to transfer from cashier to retail. (I wish to learn more things.)

  Hope that i can go for every stock take. (Earn OT !$!$, and rest on senior citizen day to avoid scoldings.)

  Hope my coffee won't be so bitter anymore. (Help michelle says this, she've been keep complaining to me.)

  Hope michelle scold less and smiles more.

  Hope can receive red packets for colleagues every year. (They were treating me too good.)
  Thanks to jackie, carol and yue hua for the ang baos.

  Hope every colleagues and their family (specially for someone) will be in good health.

  Hope all my colleagues will get less family problem especially ___________ .

  Hope Yan Yok and me can change a new pair of shoe so no need to slip and fall again.

  Hope we can always be colleagues, i really enjoy the time we work together.

  One sad new is.... Bee Bee resigned!!! Due to her health problem.

  Hope she is alright. Must visit us when possible okay? We will miss you.

   

  Erm... I know i've not been posting for so long and now comes up be a long entry.

  So i'll stop here alright?

  Don't want to get hitted by flying shoe.

  *signing off*

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