今天做早班，放工在算钱时michelle进来对jackie说见到她的女儿很怕生，见到她头放得低低的。没多久又出去了。

几分钟后michelle竟拖着jackie女儿的手带进来chief cashier room，逗弄她看妈妈在哪里。jackie女儿走向jackie，鼻子红红、好委屈地流眼泪了。每个人都笑话，叫道：“ 惨了！惨了！下雨了”。jackie正在算钱，对着女儿的哭没办法。一把抱起女儿一边哄她、一边算钱。女儿也好给面子地停止啼哭，但仍然是委屈的样子。

这时候我好想哭。已经不知多久没这感觉了。怎知道今天见到这一幕，眼睛不经意地湿了。

真的好想好想妈咪。不知以前妈咪也有经常这样呵护我、疼爱我、哄着我吗？见到jackie哄女儿的样子，真的好慈祥。

Ah leong见到我这样子，说不如我做她女儿，弄得我真的流出眼泪。

真的好想从小到大都是和妈妈一起长大。希望一路陪伴我的、分享我的喜怒哀乐的都是我妈妈。

不知妈咪现在过得怎样。

但愿一切安好。。。。

 So long nv come update liao.. haha

Brought myself a netbook.

Cost me $599, is cheap rite? can surft internet quite fast, as long it suits my needs can already.

Now nth much bothers me, jus onli my skin!!

My hand has been from bad to worst, getting more and more itchy... sob..

Tis condition has been ard one month, dunno wat causes tis.

My colleagues said is cos i ate seafood, bt all along i've been eating seafood and nth happens.

Recently i nv eat mush seafood and suddenly became like tis!!!

Became so ugly....... eeeeee!!!

Jackie asked me to go specialist check up, cos my skin sensitive has been v jia lak. Want me check my heart oso, cos last time i've cancel the appointment.

Maybe in future i'll go for these check up again, bt not now......

*signing off*

I don't know that he will come yesterday.

He came to gave me roses, teddy bear and a card during my lunch break.

I was so shock that he just suddenly appeared outside chief cashier room.

I was hold up by him once i came out. He gave me the teddy bear and the card first. Then he take out the flowers from his bag.

He said he had never gave any girl flowers, this is the first time. Asking me can i accept him back.

I was still too shock that i can't think of others. My heart is keep telling myself don't accept the flowers. But i still holding them.

Really don't know what to say. So i've told him "We're still friends." He nodded his head and leave.

When i reach tearoom, jackie and ah leong saw me holding the flowers and started asking who gave me.

When i said is him, they ask me go buy food first don't think so much.

When i came back tea room they just keep asking me to eat first and stop thinking. Ah leong told jakie "Die liao later she no heart open counter liao."

My tears just can't be control. Totally can't take in any food, in the end threw all away.

Jackie started counting how many red roses are there, guessing tonight's 4D.

She said there are 15 red roses and keep asking what does it mean. I don't know.

Actually until now i still don't know why i tears so much yesterday. Until now i'm typing this i'm still tearing.

I've told myself stop thinking of him so i purposely don't sms him at all for two whole weeks.

I've thought my heart already sink and peace.

Out of he's appearing, my heart swings again.

One more thing is, he did nothing wrong. The problm lies on me because i'm the one who mention break.

Alright i don't want to mention about it anymore.

I must stop thinking about him.